Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Hiding at the back of a wardrobe...

I was digging around the linen wardrobe searching for winter quilts and quilt covers. I found lots of other things. A dead cockroach, a stray shoe 3 sizes too small for the smallest family member, a plank of wood, a broken toy and this.....
I felt a rush of emotion when I saw it. I painted this when I miscarried my first baby. I was heartbroken and I wanted to capture my image of her/him. So many tears landed on this canvas that it must be more water paint than acrylic. I ended up falling pregnant again soon after and having a beautiful blonde baby. My second girl was a brunette and looked just like this.

It's funny what you find in the back of wardrobes. What have you discovered lately?

11 comments:

  1. It is a beautiful paining Rachel. Funny how life works out. Lots of love to you xx

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  2. I miscarried my first baby too, at almost 12 weeks, and had a second miscarriage after my first baby was born, much earlier at 7 weeks or so. I heard that Ed Sheeran song Small Bump on the radio yesterday and finally realised what it was about, and although I hadn't thought about it much since I had two healthy babies, it all came flooding back when I listened and I had tears pouring down my face.

    Your painting is lovely and I agree with Catherine, life is strange.

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  3. It's really a beautiful painting Rachel. We can feel a lot of emotions in it...

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  4. Wow, I that's got to strike a chord. That's an amazing painting & it's just a beautiful part of who you are.

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  5. What a beautiful painting, Rachel. I lost my first baby too. Like SarahMac, the first time I heard Small Bump I cried. It's such a beautiful song. Apparently it is about a friend of his, but he just writes so well. Thinking of you xx

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  6. I had a very similar experience so can totally relate. I often think about my first baby. Such a great idea to do a painting. So beautiful. x

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  7. I'm so sorry to hear you lost your first baby, that would have been heartbreaking. I had no idea you were such a talented painter though!

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  8. Lovely painting. Very beautiful.

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  9. I've come back to this post so many times but I really don't have the words. I know how much feeling must have gone into the painting and I'm sure you had such a rush of emotion upon finding it again. It's beautiful xx

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